Friday, December 31, 2004
So yeah. Group Dynamix was great!!! I had a blast playing with the kids, returning their funnoodle hits, climbing on the ropes course and whatnot. I have battle scars from the funnoodle wars - blood blisters on my big toes. One of them popped that night and I popped the other one at home. I didn't want it to burst on it's own, you know. Anyhoo, I'll quit grossing you all out and talk about something else.
Figaro is doing great. I took him out of his cage to mix up the sand and clean out his shells and such and I set him in a Mussel shell that I got in Oklahoma. Within one minute of being placed in the Mussel shell, he was all the way out of his own shell, dragging it as he crawled around all over this thing. I've never seen him crawl so fast. He kept trying to crawl out of it, so I picked him up and once he realized he wasn't on the ground anymore, he curled up inside his shell and stayed there. I finished with his tank and put him back inside. I may get some gravel from the park across the playground, clean it off real well and put it in a big plastic box that I have, put some Mussel shells in there, dish way and upside down so that Fig can crawl in and on them - make him a little playground if you will.
I wish I had a job. I want to play DDR so badly. So badly.
Well, I have nothing planned to do today other than the bonfire at church and Kaylah's party. I don't get why we're having a 45 minute bonfire with a huge pile of brush. I don't understand the logic. Plus a lot of people have parties tonight and such, I can't imagine there being very many people at this night of strange fire. You'd think there would be a better time for it. Ah well.
Well, I'm at home and bored. I want to go to Josh's house and see if his mom needs any help with housework or something. Josh is at Six Flags with JP, so he won't be at his house. I think helping his mom would be fun, though I'm almost scared to go over there because I don't want her to say she doesn't need any help, whether she does or not. I'll ask my mom and see what she says.
It doesn't feel like the year should be over yet. One more semester of school and my highschool days are over. Scary thought. I welcome the new year with happiness. Every day that goes by is one day closer to my dream coming true. Can't wait. Talk to you shmoes later.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
I feel as if I've been hit by a truck.
Today we were supposed to go to my Grandpa's house, but Dad has the flu and they haven't had their flu shots, so they didn't want to risk it. I got to stay home for Christmas like I wanted, but I didn't like the way I got it.
Pray for me - stuff is going haywire right before my eyes.
Well, it's Christmas day and my heart is still four sizes too small. I still have what Brent calls the "Grinch-Heart Phase." I'm a wreck.
That's really all I had to say. Oh yeah. Happy Christmas.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
I know, everyone will be posting about the snow, but I don't care because like all other Texans in winter time - I FREAK OUT ABOUT SNOW!!! Besides, I woke up in the best way possible this morning and it involved the snow.
I woke to a phone call. It was my beautiful boyfriend, telling me to look outside. I opened the curtains to reveal a shower of snowflakes, big ones, falling gracefully to the ground. I got to talk to Josh for a few minutes before he went to school - that was fun. He he he. I'm such a girl, but I don't care.
I've been working my fingers off getting Josh's blanket done. I only have one panel left and if I expect to give it to him when I see him tomorrow, I'd better hussle, considering I have to not only finish crocheting the last panel, but tuck in all the strings, sew the panels together, and crochet the border. The border won't take that long, probably only an hour, but still.
Speaking of which, I'd better go get working on it. I haven't had breakfast yet and it's almost 9:15!!!
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
An e-mail that was sent to my Dad read like this:
Does Evil Exist?
The university professor challenged his students with this question:
"Did God create everything that exists?"
A student bravely replied, "Yes, He did!"
"God created everything?" The professor probed.
"Yes, sir," the student replied.
The professor answered, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists and according to the principal that our works define who we are, then God is evil."
The student became quiet before such an answer. The professor was quite pleased with himself and boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.
Another student raised his hand and said, "Can I ask you a question, professor?"
"Of course," replied the professor.
The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"
The professor spluttered, "What kind of question is this? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"
The students snickered at the young man's question.
The young man replied, "In fact, sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has energy. Absolute zero (-460 degrees F) is the total absence of heat; all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."
The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"
The professor responded, "Of course it does."
The student replied, "Once again, you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by meant to describe what happens when there is no light present."
Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"
Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already said. We see it every day. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."
To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist, sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is not like faith, or love that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness the comes when there is no light."
The professor sat down.
The young man's name --- Albert Einstein
Powerful story.
Oh - Josh got accepted to UT Austin!!! Woot! I knew he would, but it's stil so exciting!
Monday, December 20, 2004
Yesterday was quite eventful. I sang in all four services at church, it was great, and Josh and Seanathan came and watched me!!! Hooray!!!
Everyone looked down yesterday. Josh, Lara, Anna, Seanathan, Nancy, Trevor, John Nurge, me; the only person that looked happy was Randy. I don't know why everyone was so down. Guess it was just a bad day all around.
On an upside, I got to see a girl that I had in Cubbies when I was a Cubbies leader (Cubbies = AWANA for kids ages 3-4). I saw her, her brother, and her new little sister, and I talked with her mom a little bit. Her mom had called me about babysitting sometime since she lives 5-10 mins from my house. Neeya is the sweetest little girl - I've always had a special connection with her, even though she was four when I met her. I'm not sure how old Neeya and Ayden (?) are now, their little sister will be two on the 21st.
I had to be at a rehearsal for Christmas Eve services at 3:00 yesterday afternoon and after the rehearsal I had a few minutes and thought I'd sit down at the piano and play some of the songs I know from memory. My old piano teacher, Marcella Graham, had heard the piano being played but didn't know it was me until she walked into the auditorium. When she walked in was when my Mom told me to stop playing and take my stuff into the Shire (backstage). Marcella told my mom not to make me stop playing, so after I put my stuff in the Shire, I went back out and played for her. I played three or four songs, messed up on all of them but continued playing anyways, and when I was done, she told me to keep practicing at home even if my piano is out of tune (I had told her that it was horribly out of tune and I wanted to hear my songs on something in tune) because I have "the touch." I was blown away. Getting a compliment of that magnitude from a pianist as great as Marcella nearly knocked the wind out of me. I didn't think I was worth listening to.
It's funny. I only took lessons from Marcella for about two months but I learned so much from her - everything she taught me has stuck with me, techniques for holding your hands while playing to make it easier and less stressful on them, making music instead of just playing the song, things like that. I've learned a lot from her. She's an awesome woman and a great teacher.
I have four days to finish my blanket. I may set aside school for the time being (I can always catch up on the weekend - I've done it before) in order to get it done. I can't believe how long it's taken me - ridiculously long. I'll get it done, I know I will.
I had a great time at Tyler's party on Saturday night. I hung out with Josh and Philly most of the time, I learned how to play Mao (spell check?) by Jason and Allison's rules (I liked Jason's better - Allison penalizes too much, especially for newbies), I would have played DDR but I was having issues. It was great fun and when Josh took me home, Philly came with us. He brought a CD with only two songs on it, one Philly wrote and the other was from the movie Crimson Tide that Philly wanted to mimick parts from. Holy cow Philly is an incredible composer. He wrote what he did in only 18 days and it's phenomenal. Needless to say, I wouldn't mind having a copy of that CD.
I'm going to save my birthday and Christmas money (if any) and get an XBox and DDR. I want to learn how to play that game so badly, it's so much fun. I've played it once before (I sucked, granted I was at GameWorks and couldn't hear my music as good as I could have) and had a blast even though I reeked - I'm hooked. It'll take me a long while to save up, it'll cost approximately $200 dollars to get the XBox, game, and two game pads. Yeah, it'll take a while but it'll be well worth it, I'm sure.
Pray that I can find a job too, I'm currently unemployed and would like to buy a car sometime soon (putting my DDR dreams on hold, of course), put down some money for college, you know, minor things like that. Ha. So yeah. If y'all could ask me about how that's going every so often, it would be much appreciated.
Oh, and if you have anything to say about what I write on here, comment. I haven't gotten many comments lately and I'm not sure who all has been reading this blog. If you feel like it, comment. It too, would be much appreciated.
Oh, and is it wrong to wish the past had happened differently so that you could have opportunities now? Like wishing I had stuck with my desire to go to public school during summer of 8th grade year so that I could be in band and know how to play the trombone and do it fairly well and be able to play in the Wind Ensemble at church and play in front of people and in band at college...is that wrong or bad? There are other things like this that I think about...is it wrong or bad for me to wish things like that?
I'll let y'all go now - awful long post but I don't care. I'll catch y'all later.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Today I'm having lunch with Brent. Asking advice and such things should prove interesting and hopefully educational. I'll let you know how it went.
I'm still waiting for my Mom to get enough money in the account so that I can buy my Christmas presents for my friends. I realize groceries for the family are more important than buying presents, that's why I've kept submitting. So if you get your Christmas present a month late, I sincerely apologize - I'm going to get it to you as fast as I can.
I'm kind-of nervous about lunch today. I don't know what Brent's going to say and I don't want to make myself sound like an idiot or say something dumb. I prayed about it in the shower this morning - God will take care of it.
Hey guess what??? Progressive Dinner is in one day and a wake-up! Hooray! Can't wait! Everyone's going to look so good! I guess that's all I have to say for now. If you find anything interesting in here or have anything to note, please feel free to comment. Later!
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
I woke up late this morning and have been in an almost bad mood all day. Don't know why.
Yesterday, at about 1700, I woke up from my nap. I watched the tv for a half hour and then looked at the clock. It was 1730. I thought to myself, "If I'm going to TCBS, I need to get ready to go." But I felt like I was having to make myself go, and I didn't really want to go, so I caved and stayed in bed watching tv for a while.
Later on, I was helping my Mom string christmas lights on the poles of our porch umbrella. We made the mistake of not checking the lights first to make sure they worked before we strung them all over this thing. Only half of them worked. It was chilly out, and my hands had gotten dry and sore from working outside earlier, and I felt like I wouldn't be much help in finding the bad bulb if I was doing it half-heartedly. I went inside and asked John to help Mom while I started dinner and got a pot of water boiling for when John and Mom came in freezing. John came in after a while and I used said hot water to make him some Snowman Soup. When Mom came in, just before dinner was ready, I made her the last bag of the best tea (other than the Picasso stuff that Mrs. G had last year at Christmas time) I have ever tasted. It's Celestial Seasoning's Sugar Plum Spice Holiday Herbal Tea. Sorry, random tangent.
Anyhoo, for the first time in a long time, the five of us ate dinner together. We had a blast, laughed our heads off at stupid things (like how I was the best diaper exploder when I was little), and had all sorts of fun. It was great.
Even though I had a great time with my family, I still felt guilty about not having gone to TCBS. I don't know why I felt guilty, you would have had to drag me out the door to get me to go earlier. I don't know what's wrong with me.I just found out my beloved is sick. I'm going to see if I can go over there and help him feel better like he did for me. Can you believe that I was sick on our first monthiversary? What's more is that he came over anyways and helped me feel better! Isn't he sweet? I love him so much.
Lara is sick too. I feel sorry for them both. I'm definately going to visit them today. I'll talk to you shmoes later.
Monday, December 13, 2004
Today was great fun (at least so far)! With a little help from my brother, John, and mother, i have decorated my house, deck and yard in all sorts of decorative lighting. It looks very good (if i do say so myself) - i can't wait to see it tonight, all lit up and such. You are all going to have to come over and see it!
Yesterday was fun. I got up, called my beautiful boyfriend, ate breakfast, detangled lights, went to the store to buy light clips and a one gallon jar of pickles for my good brother, (who has been 16 for two days now), showered, baked cookies, went to church (the speaker this week was excellent - very funny, something i like a lot), went to Sunday School, went to Josh's to give him an early Christmas present and his cookies, went to Wendy's (and Albertson's).
I got Josh a "Super Dooper Reindeer Pooper" jelly bean dispenser. I couldn't help myself - i wanted to see his reaction. He laughed. He asked why, but he kept laughing, so i think he's amused by it. He had some cookies, he liked them (i think). They weren't the best batch ever, i think i had too much brown sugar in them, so i would understand if he didn't like them.
Wendy's was fun. Seanathan, Shaye and i went to Albertson's to get Shaye some apples (we, of course, ended up buying more than just apples). By the time we got back to Wendy's everyone had left (except for John, 'cause i was his ride), so the four of us got into Clifford, our 1988 Chevy Astro Van, and talked and talked. We talked about all sorts of stuff, and we had a blast learning new things about each other and confessing our hearts (to some degree) and developing our relationships with one another. It was great! We talked until Shaye said that she had to pee, which was about 11:30, then we went back to Albertson's, went potty, and went home. It was one of the best nights i've had after church in a long while. Thanks, you guys!
I had a great time putting lights up today. Seriously, you all should come see my house! It's the first time we've had lights up in literally seven (7) years. I've lived in this house for 10 years. Hmm. Anyhoo, come see it!
I'm going to go take a nap now, so i'll talk to you shmoes later.
Christmas is in the air...Can you smell it?
Thursday, December 09, 2004
He he he. I almost pulled an all-nighter doing my schoolwork yesterday. I didn't finish until a quarter to two. He he, nice. I didn't sleep very well on top of that, so i'm going to be one tired puppy later. 'Tis all good.
I hope everyone is getting along ok. I think i might know which college i want to go to (and realistically will be able to go, with some struggling, of course). All i need to know is if it has on-campus housing. If it does, that's where i'll apply to. And, it's only 3 hours and 12 minutes away from UT Austin! He he. We'll see what God has planned.
Well, i must go for now, but i'll be back later. Later could very well be tomorrow, but eh. Ta!
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Wow, i'm in a great mood.
Progressive Dinner (for the mid-schoolers) last night was awesome! Only two of my girls showed up, but that's ok. They were beautiful! This was my first time helping out with the mid-school PD, and i had an absolute blast!
Thank you to all of you who encourage me, who inspire me, who teach me, and who are there for me no matter what. I love you all, my brothers and sisters!
Praise God!
Thursday, December 02, 2004
For some reason, me reading my own blog and the comments on it (or lack thereof) makes me feel alone. I feel very alone right now and I don't know why. I feel like I need to talk to someone, but I don't know what about. Very odd.
K, i just typed up this really long e-mail to send to a friend of mine (took me 35 minutes to type up), and i pushed the spell check button (because i'm and idiot like that) and my "session had expired." So yeah, just completely lost the friggin' message. I will have patience. *Have patience, Jules. Have patience.*
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
I just started taking government yesterday, and it's not really that hard (yet, I'm sure). I'm glad I'm taking it...I need to be able to put it on my highschool transcript/GED for college.
It's great, within the first two lessons of government, I've already surpassed the point I'm at in history - which is halfway through the history book. It's interesting how so much can happen in a country in only a few years. It's amazing how young our country really is.
Oh, this is great. I learned (in government) that the Pledge of Allegiance
was written in 1892 (by Francis Bellamy), wasn't adopted by congress until 1942 and the words "under God" weren't in the pledge at all until they were added in 1956. Remember the debate about taking the words "under God" out of the pledge? I heard people disagree with that idea by saying that "you can't change the original writings of the author, that's how he wrote it, and that's how America published it" when in actuality, that's completely false. The pledge wasn't adopted by congress until 50 years after first being penned, and it went without those words for 64 years. It makes me wonder...
For all of you who knew the condition of my closet, I have a surprise for you. The carpet is not only visible, but vacuumed. Yes, you heard me right, VACUUMED. Heh. To let the rest of you in, in order to complete this amazing feat, I had to sort through 11 garbage bags full of stuff (as in couldn't possibly hold anything more), plus enough loose things to fill yet another garbage bag. I have four garbage bags ready to go to Goodwill, and threw away two garbage bags full of trash. I am proud of my accomplishments. You all know how lazy I am and what it takes for me to actually do something productive.
Must finish my dinner now - Rasin Bran, yummm - so that I can go to Bible Study tonight. I can't wait!